#1 2020-04-15 05:16:44

Piper_A

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Registered: 2018-03-26

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Watching yourself!

A lot of people I have spoken to about Beautiful Agony have been somewhat embarrassed about their orgasm face and said that's their main concern about doing something like this!
In some way I understand; I used to feel a lot like that, but I think that i've grown a lot in terms of my sexuality since doing this project and now I actually find joy in watching myself orgasm! I remember when I first did Beautiful Agony, one of my colleagues told me I had really 'cute orgasms' and I still feel really proud to know that - sometimes I will watch my videos here and on IFM and think "wow, I DO have cute orgasms!".
My fiance recently did Beautiful Agony (#4916) and he said he was embarrassed to watch the videos back, but he did let me indulge my desire by watching our duet (#0281) in bed with me the other night, and to his surprise he really enjoyed it!
For me, I don't think there's anything sexier than my partner's orgasm face, and I have told him that! And maybe that's what helped him enjoy watching the duet video - maybe seeing how much I desire him made him feel more capable of accepting himself? I'm not really sure, but we strongly agreed that it was really sexy to watch ourselves back.
The 'friends' videos are my favourite on this site, I think it's so amazing to see how amplified people's arousal can be when they excitedly share it with someone. Personally my favourite part of watching back my own 'friends' video was the little muttered words we share, and the way we look at each other and whisper things.. AGH, I just love it!

If you're a contributor to this project, i'd love to hear how you feel watching back your own videos, or your partner's videos (if they have done it too). It's beautiful to be able to appreciate every little detail of the experience of orgasm - when you're physically involved it's so easy to get wrapped up and swept away, but to be physically removed and watching it back is something different; you appreciate every facial expression, every flush, every movement.

I'd love to hear other people's thoughts

EnglishGent

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Re: Watching yourself!

Hola Piper! I hope you're well.
I've not had the pleasure of, erm, the plèasure on this site myself as of yet! lol But I did want to echo your sentiments about your partner.  I too love nothing more than mutual pleasure in a relationship and can imagine it must be quite special to expereince a duet and to be able to watch it back and appreciate again the little nuances that make relationships in general so wonderful. Alas, I am single currently! lol

I did also want to say that you are stunning!  I definitely appreciated your videos too, so thank you! you have such an amazing body too!   I've just found you on IFM, my dreams have come true! lol

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Piper_A

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Re: Watching yourself!

Thanks so much for the response! If you haven't had the pleasure of watching yourself maybe you should submit a video of your own! I found it so fascinating watching my Agony for the first time!
And thank you so much for those beautiful comments about my body - wow, just thank you a million times over! I am always grateful for any compliments on my body, I have had a long journey learning to accept it and some days I still definitely don't - it's seeing myself through the eyes of people like you that helps me feel beautiful, so truly, thanks <3
Stay great!

slimm1469

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Re: Watching yourself!

I'm a single straight guy and yes, Piper I agree. You are a hot knockout and I appreciate your concern and support for your fiance. To have his woman go this deep with him is what every guy dreams of = the ultimate intimacy. We guys need support and kindness. I love the bisexual and lesbian partners videos; these women understand each other completely, and are so sweet and attentive to each other, so loving, it's touching. They teach me what a woman wants in her intimate moments.

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Piper_A

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Re: Watching yourself!

It's so true that support and kindness is so needed - particularly when it comes to sexuality. I know that without his support I wouldn't have felt so good about contributing to the Feck sites, and I never want to be anything less than equally supportive of him! I know that most of the men in my life really struggle with being fully vulnerable, and that's something that comes up a lot when I talk to my male friends about this particular project. Sexuality is for everyone - I love being so sex-positive and I want to encourage all my loved ones to be the same, regardless of gender!
Speaking of lesbian and bisexual videos, I was just thinking the other day about how there haven't been many on here lately! I have considered doing one myself actually. I have been attracted to women since I can remember - attraction to men is something I only discovered more recently. I would love for this platform to be a place where I can capture my first proper sexual experience with a woman, we'll see if I meet anyone who would be keen
Thanks for your thoughtful response!

_hyperballad_

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Re: Watching yourself!

I have to be in a particular kind of mood to watch back my own content, but yes I do look at my contributions! I find myself looking through my 'back catalogue' from time to time & having a very nice trip down memory lane. It's super intense though, I find myself so immersed in watching back my orgasms. I hold my breath a lot too! My Agony is so old, I filmed it 15 years ago but I got real comfy with it, real quick - I used to be in the showreel which was on a huge TV on the wall in the office once upon a time. Nothing like seeing yourself cum over & over & over again to get you familiar with your own O face!

In general I love watching expressive orgasms from men, so it's wonderful watching my husband & my lovers orgasm in the flesh, although my husband is the only one out of the group that has contributed. I struggle watching his Agony because I helped him shoot it & he was so nervous it was quite stressful. Although it's interesting to see our duet from the very beginning of our relationship. I think we were still a little shy with each other, funnily enough. I absolutely get-off on the work he did for GMH, that was & is so exceedingly smoking hot!

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#5034

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Re: Watching yourself!

Today I watched myself for the first time and I confirmed what I believed: Orgasm face is like a 'I'm in pain' face. I sometimes wonder if I'm hurting my partner, but now I just know is the natural pain/orgasm face.
It was interesting to be part of this project, I have been more aware of my personal growth and confidence in sexuality and it is very rewarding to see this video from a few months back.

Piper_A

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Registered: 2018-03-26

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Re: Watching yourself!

Thanks so much for joining the discussion (and such a lovely video by the way!) - I love what you said about being more aware of your personal growth and confidence since doing the project. I shared similar feelings for sure!! I think as well, it made me think about how I am perceived / about the idea of being watched. Being a part of a community of people who all appreciate the beauty and authenticity of orgasm above the tropes of mainstream porn has made me more comfortable in not stifling my facial expressions and body jolts / contractions and even helped me have better, more enjoyable orgasms!
I hope you get a chance to check out a bunch of videos - they're all so beautiful and interesting in their own ways