#1 2015-06-23 21:55:21

i5blep7

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Registered: 2015-06-05

Posts: 13

BA - my thoughts and more

1. The German weekly magazine "Die Welt" called BA as one of the most erotic sites on the net. I can only agree with this opinion.

2. When I see a video for the first time, I am always fascinated by the faces, by the variability of emotions, by the intensity.
But if I look at a video a second or third time, I have to admit that my mind wanders. I would like to know what is happening outside of the video below the "chest line". What masturbation techniques are used, perhaps with sex toys. And how these men ejaculate.
And then there are these images (ideas) in my head, the veracity of which I can never check. And that's disturbing and erotic at the same time.

3. I was wondering how I would react if I would discover a video of a work colleague or a friend. How would I look at him at the next meeting ? Would I talk to him ? I do not know, but probably I would choose my reaction spontaneously and situationally.
And how I would react if a colleague or friend had seen my video and would appeal to me. Denial is not an option!

4. On my first visit to the site (without a subscription), I noticed that all the videos have a duration of about 5 minutes. And I thought: Can it be that all these men and women manage to reach an orgasm in exactly this time frame ? And if so, how do they do that ?
I tried using a timer. It worked somehow, but it was more of a "technical ejaculation" then a satisfying orgasm.
When I later was able to watch videos (with a subscription), I realized quickly that the submitted videos were edited into this time frame. And I thought: how stupid I have been doing a "self-experiment".
By the way: if I had read the notes from BA earlier, I could have spared these masturbation experience. Reading should be a basic qualification ?

5. Recently I decided to take a video. I had set up the camera and put myself comfortable on a bed under the camera. Somehow I reached an orgasm, but it was not very intense. Until the climax my thoughts constantly alternated between my feelings and fantasies on the one hand and the special setting of the camera on the other hand. What people see of me, what impression I make, what they expect from me, have I to reach orgasm at some point ?
I somehow did not come to myself, I could not really let it go, make the thoughts flow freely.
Later, when I looked at the video, I did not find me. But I had never seen me during masturbation. It seemed to me like a rehearsed spectacle and not as a pleasure. Frustrated and disappointed, I have deleted the recording.
A few days later a second attempt. No matter how long it takes, no matter what I look like, no matter how others will absorb it later, I want my fun, my satisfaction, my orgasm. And it worked.
For the second video I might leave my secure bedroom and try it in a park or along a river, perhaps.

Last edited by i5blep7 (2015-06-23 21:56:05)

editor

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Registered: 2012-03-23

Posts: 159

Re: BA - my thoughts and more

Hello i5blep7,

Thank you for sharing, it's very interesting to hear your thoughts from the beginning til the actual filming of your own Agony. Your idea for shooting the second Agony by the river sounds beautiful, it reminds me of the lovely Agonist #2163 as she did something similar too. We eagerly await for your submissions here at BA HQ, good luck!

Ed Ed Editor

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